The Autism Experience

This describes a typical autistic person’s experience of Theory of Mind. Autism varies widely and if you are autistic and reading this it may not match your experience.

Note: I do not experience this and have only information gleaned from LLMs. In fact this may not match anyone’s experience, but this model does fit with how I have read people think the ToM mechanism behind autism works.

See also: NT Experience and My Experience.

  • Able to receive signal from nonverbal cues
    • e.g. the social signal
    • Very aware that others have hidden thoughts, sometimes hyper-aware
    • The signal may be noisy, unfiltered, has a connection issue or might be something else – in any event it doesn’t engage the automatic simulation hardware in the brain
      • See this book where the author experiences a change in their ability
  • Manual processing, manual simulation
    • Called Theory-theory
    • People must manually process social signals through propositional logic
      • Behavior X implies intent Y
    • Search for meaning, intention, subtext
    • Anxiety around misinterpretation
    • Conflicting thoughts about what others think
    • High effort
      • This can lead to meltdowns, social fatigue, or being overwhelmed
    • Social lag
      • The effort and processing takes time and reactions may lag
  • Mechanism
    • Social Salience works but noisy
    • Manual processing of signals
    • High effort, high lag